Return from the Drought

Peace Ya'll

I'm back from my long hiatus...been dealing with a lot of stress (school, women, you know the usual) so I haven't really had the urge to sit down and type my thoughts out on this blog, but I decided today was the day.

I think a lot. Those who know me personally can attest to that fact. I also realize that as much as I used to try to change the way other people think and open them up to the realities that I now envision, that is almost entirely impossible at this stage in my life. I am 19 years old, (turned Sept. 10), and it still strikes me odd when people bash Hip Hop. I thought we came far from where we used to be, but I can understand their malcontent for the art form. What "Hip Hop" today is nothing but a popularity contest between super ego caricatures about who has the most "swagger", the most money, the most "bitches" whatever it may be...

Music is the least of my worries, in fact I no longer indulge in other people's opinions of music, at least to the degree that I used to. I just listen to whatever I listen to and enjoy it. My problem used to be caring what other people thought of my thoughts. It's a problem I still have and that is taking discipline to remove...thought I know it's human nature to do so, I realize there are just so many more important things in this world to worry about...family being number one.

On to another topic though...another day, another trek through this thing we call life...I seriously believe that I may be depressed. Why? Just because I think too much...I've thought about almost every outcome of my life and I just don't see the point of college...my true passion lies in music, and music that is on it's "disco deathbed" at that...not to mention the way the country is headed, imma need money to get me through the tough times...so I have to get that "piece of paper" that will allow me to make a lot of "pieces of paper" if you follow me...it's all a race to nothingness.

I guess what I can sum this post up as is that this past month and a half I have been at odds with the very fabric of "self". Trying to really get in touch with who I am and what I am here for. Can't say I'm any closer, but at least you know where my head is at.

More to come...